Thursday, November 29, 2012

Pour mes neveux

If I never accomplish anything but, I want to make you love.
I do, however, wish to warn you. Although love can be the greatest feeling you may ever feel, it can bring on the harshest of pains. I need you to appreciate the pain. Dolly Parton once said, “the way I see it, if you want the rainbow you gotta put up with the rain.” I want you to know that it’s okay to feel pain. It’s human. It’s beautiful. And it is good for you.
What’s not okay is feeling dead inside. Complacency is a very close runner up. No matter how hard your pain is, I want you to always be able to cherish good memories. Don't ever let your heart get hardened. No matter how bitter your heartache makes you, I need you to capture that way that you felt when you first felt love. I’m not talking about family love although I think that is incredibly important too. I’m talking about the kind of love they make movies about.
I don’t know if it’s normal to feel what I once felt but I know I felt joy in the simple idea of a thought of someone. If that even makes sense. Just knowing that there was someone out there that floated on clouds just thinking of me. The way I floated on clouds just thinking of him.
I don’t just need you to love, I need you to be loved. Never accept anything less. There is no point in holding someone close to your heart if they don’t do the same. And don't settle. Don't let you make yourself believe that it's love because you want to say that you loved. When you feel it, you won't have to ask if it is. When you love someone, you'll not only know but others will be able to tell. By the way you can't stop smiling just because you heard their name. Or the way you blush when they just look your way. The way you won't be able to form a complete sentence let alone thought. It will feel almost miserable but also, completely not.
So don't let your heart get sidetracked. Demand only the best.
I need you to know your worth. Because you’re worth everything to me. Never spring for anything less than happiness. But know that happiness, like I was saying, comes at a price. You can’t sit there and safely, humbly coast through life. You must take chances and you must scream at the top of your lungs. You must fall hard. And don’t worry- I may not be there to catch you but I will pick up the pieces I promise. And I might not get them all back and in the right places but you’ll be just as beautiful to me.
And in some weird and twisted ways, you'll feel refreshed, renewed, re-purposed.
And to me, you’ll never mean anything less than everything. I need you to know that. I need you to know that I love you. Perhaps more than you will ever even know. So here is my advice, in rhyming form as I do best.

You must run your body out of breath.
You must show grief for love and hope for death.
You must kiss like it would kill you to not.
You must love. And you must love a lot.
You must run further than you ever could.
You must cry harder than you ever would.
You need to feel heartache. You need pain.
You need rainbows just like you need rain.
You need to love like you’ll never love again.
You need to be the worlds best friend.
I want you to scream until your voice is sore.
I want you to whisper until you must roar.
I want you to sing, loud and unclear.
I want you to release your every fear.
It’s okay to get hurt- I’ll be here for you.
It’s okay to cry, to feel nothing but blue.
So long as you’re feeling, that is okay.
You’ll feel better on some other day.
And no matter what, we’ll do it together.
And I’ll love you best, for always and ever.

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